My Fear of Change

Let’s talk about change. I’ve always loved it! Honestly, when I was younger I always welcomed change because it was so exciting to me (except when it came to my hair). Fast forward to becoming a parent and all of a sudden change scares me (except when it comes to my hair). Crazy right?

I fear change in my daughter’s schedule, I fear change in her health, I fear change in the success of our business, I fear change in my life just in general. So, I’ve been more adventurous with my hair.
[This is not a Blog about my hair don’t worry]
I’ve never lived my life this way. And the older I get, the more I feel like other people have opinions on the changes I make in MY LIFE. Maybe it’s because I put so much of my life on Social Media, which is totally my choice, or maybe it’s because I’m a mom. I’m not so sure, but I’ve realized that the older I get, the more I do, the more I share, the more others have opinions on what I do. And I’ve realized that effects me and my decisions. I’m not ashamed to admit that I think twice before changing something in my life due to how it will effect others.

But to be honest I’ve been holding on to something for a year for fear of change. In fear of forgetting, for the fear of it happening again and truthfully, for the fear of allowing myself to be TRULY happy.

Well, last night all of that changed. I sat down with Christian and I explained that I have been living in fear for a whole year, fear of change, and I was done. I wanted to choose happiness. I wanted to accept change, move forward and for lack of better words, “screw everyone who’s had an opinion on what I do in MY life.”

And so I did just that. I chose happiness. I chose change. And today, was one of the best days I’ve had in a while! You may never know what I’ve been through in the last year, but thats not important. What IS important is that no matter your situation, if you can relate to these feelings, you have it in you to CHANGE. You just have to be willing and ready. And if you’re going through something, whether its only been a day, a week, or a year, you’re not alone. You have the power to choose happiness and you DESERVE that happiness.

Until next time, KC.

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